I think I have gotten over being shy and awkward I dont have anyone let to impress, I am doing a photoshoot tomorrow and then another one in a few weekends and it doesnt freak me out at all, the way I view it is they might end up disliking me thinking that I am ugly and what not but I will still have Jasper to come home to who I know doesnt think those things about me at all and he is the only one that I care about.