January 2012
33 posts
feeling distant from you. Psychically and emotionally,
I can live with the psychically distant but I can not live with the emotionally distant,
I dont want to have to hide you, I dont want to feel like I have to hide my feelings from you.. well not hide my feelings but not tell you to your face,
I miss feeling you squeeze me tight like you use...
I dont know what to do or think I have things that I want but cant have, I have these views that I dont feel like I can share,
I want him to be able to read my mind so he will be able to just understand me no questions asked.
Anonymous asked: when are you going to make a video? I want to hear you come... make a porno with your boyfriend or of you doing solo shit. Your pics make me wet already.
I think I have gotten over being shy and awkward I dont have anyone let to impress, I am doing a photoshoot tomorrow and then another one in a few weekends and it doesnt freak me out at all, the way I view it is they might end up disliking me thinking that I am ugly and what not but I will still have Jasper to come home to who I know doesnt think those things about me at all and he is the only one...
December 2011
36 posts
‘in response to the person asking me “So do you change? Can you change?” No i do not change because I know he likes me for me and I am just doubting my self like I normally do.
from this book I am reading I have decided that me falling out of love with Colby but still loving him and caring about him makes sense.. I only think I was in love with him for the first week and then i got bored.. then i think about all of my exs and I cant think of one that I have lusted for as long as I have with Jasper. I am definitely “in love” with him. I just hope I don’t...
looking at his photos I feel like he is going to either be the end of me or a start to an amazing life.
at times I just really feel like he doesnt like who I really am and whats to just change me..
If being in love just means you lust for someone then I am in love with you, using my meaning and your meaning. get over it.